It is there outside this boat
and I cant get off.
A haiku by Cadence about working on yachts.
September 26, 2010
September 4, 2010
End of Summer
So weeks have passed and I have fallen into the easy routine that is being home.
It has been so nice to spend these last eight weeks here, no stress or moving or pressure to do anything really, to just be able to sit quietly and get my head back on straight. Now the next step is approaching and I finally feel ready to take on the world again! It feels today like I am breathing fresh air for the first time in months, like the clouds have parted and I am seeing clearly again.
On a sad note, Ibiza Yoga the center in Ibiza I was working burned down a few weeks ago. In fact, much of Benirras burned. If ever there was a place that needed a cleansing however, the hedonistic lifestyle of that place was it! I'm so glad that none of my friends were hurt, but I cant help but wonder at myself, how I left there thinking "its ok, I can always go back". Things never stop changing.
I am realizing more and more that the universe works itself out, and although the outcome might not be exactly what I wanted it to be, it is always right. Trust in this is important I think, in order to live my life the way I want.
There is so much more, and I will probably delete this post tomorrow as none of my thoughts are coherent or well formed right now.
I am trying so very hard to be the person that I want to be, but its hard to be nice all the time. I am happy for him though, I've always known he would be a great father, just a terrible man to have a kid with.
It has been so nice to spend these last eight weeks here, no stress or moving or pressure to do anything really, to just be able to sit quietly and get my head back on straight. Now the next step is approaching and I finally feel ready to take on the world again! It feels today like I am breathing fresh air for the first time in months, like the clouds have parted and I am seeing clearly again.
On a sad note, Ibiza Yoga the center in Ibiza I was working burned down a few weeks ago. In fact, much of Benirras burned. If ever there was a place that needed a cleansing however, the hedonistic lifestyle of that place was it! I'm so glad that none of my friends were hurt, but I cant help but wonder at myself, how I left there thinking "its ok, I can always go back". Things never stop changing.
I am realizing more and more that the universe works itself out, and although the outcome might not be exactly what I wanted it to be, it is always right. Trust in this is important I think, in order to live my life the way I want.
There is so much more, and I will probably delete this post tomorrow as none of my thoughts are coherent or well formed right now.
I am trying so very hard to be the person that I want to be, but its hard to be nice all the time. I am happy for him though, I've always known he would be a great father, just a terrible man to have a kid with.
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